Thank you for dumping me.
Because when it comes down to it, I wasn’t brave enough to dump you.
We were great together. We had fun. We traveled. We loved. We started to dream and plan our future together.
In the end, you decided we were better off going our separate directions. And you know what?
I mean that in the most sincere and honest way ever.
It wasn’t fair of me to expect more than you could give.
I’m going to say this out loud. I have dad issues. They are buried so deep and instead of leaning on you as my partner in crime, friend, and lover, I relied on you to fix the hurt from a past that you couldn’t fix. That you shouldn’t fix.
It wasn’t fair to you.
I gave up things that made me happy and expected you to do the same. Instead of uniting to make the best two people, I expected each of us to sacrifice everything. We slowly began to suffocate. Our aspirations became a thing of yesterdays.
Emotions aside, I held on to us so hard, because everything around me was crashing down. Instead of being the one by your side or leading the way. I was the one behind you pushing. Ignoring wants, needs, and desires. Pushing. Forcing things in a time and place that neither of us was ready for at the time. Not together, at least.
So, in the upcoming months, things are changing for both of us. Things that would have never come to fruition if we were together neither professionally and personally.
Sometimes there is no “closure”, you just move on. And you know what? That’s okay. To come out of this unchanged, would be a disservice to myself.
For the times we had together, I will cherish forever.
*Edited September 8, 2017*