thank you for dumping me.

Thank you for dumping me.

Because when it comes down to it, I wasn’t brave enough to dump you.

We were great together. We had fun. We traveled. We loved. We started to dream and plan our future together.

In the end, you decided we were better off going our separate directions. And you know what?

Thank you.

I mean that in the most sincere and honest way ever.

It wasn’t fair of me to expect more than you could give.

I’m going to say this out loud. I have dad issues. They are buried so deep and instead of leaning on you as my partner in crime, friend, and lover, I relied on you to fix the hurt from a past that you couldn’t fix. That you shouldn’t fix.

It wasn’t fair to you. 

I gave up things that made me happy and expected you to do the same. Instead of uniting to make the best two people, I expected each of us to sacrifice everything. We slowly began to suffocate. Our aspirations became a thing of yesterdays.

Emotions aside, I held on to us so hard, because everything around me was crashing down. Instead of being the one by your side or leading the way. I was the one behind you pushing. Ignoring wants, needs, and desires. Pushing. Forcing things in a time and place that neither of us was ready for at the time. Not together, at least.

So, in the upcoming months, things are changing for both of us. Things that would have never come to fruition if we were together neither professionally and personally.

Sometimes there is no “closure”, you just move on. And you know what? That’s okay. To come out of this unchanged, would be a disservice to myself.

For the times we had together, I will cherish forever.

❤ Krystal


*Edited September 8, 2017*


brave and courageous.

Oklahoma City Memorial Marathon

Oklahoma City Memorial Marathon

Many will agree that running a marathon is more than a race. It’s an experience. Whether it takes you 2 hours or 6 hours to venture 26.2 miles on your feet, you are bound to learn something new about yourself. I’m still soaking in the fact that I ran a marathon on Sunday. It’s definitely a strange concept for me to grasp. Close friends and family that have known me for over three years, know that running was never on the top of my priority list. Or any list for that matter. I once (okay, maybe twice) completed my summer post-season soccer workout without running a mile whatsoever. I thought weightlifting would get me through. I now know that the best way to prepare for any type of running activity is to RUN! Although, I can’t think of any life-changing epiphanies I had during my run on Sunday, the only thing I have thought about this week was the marathon.

Here are a few things I learned about myself this week:

1) I am WAY too hard on myself.
At the age of 26, I should have it all together by now, right?!? I am starting to think even at the age of 100, some people still don’t have it together. I am realizing that it is alright to not be perfect and it is alright to make mistakes. I need to remind myself that I am human. In order to grow and learn, I need to make mistakes. Whether it be in my personal or professional life, I need to sometimes fall down and scrape my knees up a little bit. And you know what? It’s okay. No one is holding me on a pedestal. The ones who care most will be there with an encouraging word, prayer, or a shoulder to lean on. Like Dr. Seuss said, “Be who you are and say what you feel, because those who mind don’t matter and those who matter don’t mind. .” Breathe, Krystal.

2) I minimize my achievements, A LOT.
Yes, I have accomplished quite a bit in my life. I am so blessed. Many times I look back and see that it was always God at work. There is no reason I should have been on a collegiate soccer team with no formal training or no club experience. I think this was a big defining achievement in my life, which continues to shape my future.

I have been on my own since I was 18. A few times since then, I have made some decisions that have completely changed the trajectory of my life. At the time, I never noticed them as signs of bravery and courage, but hindsight is always 20/20. Moving away to school. Accepting a position in a state where I have no family. Going back to school. My mom once told me, if I make decisions based on what other people tell me or what other people do, I will miss out on a lot things in life. I am creating my own story, and if it involves acts of bravery and courage even better.

4) Sometimes I GIVE up too EASY.
Okay, this is actually something I realized during my last 6 miles of my marathon. I can do something a hundred times, but sometimes that 101st time will seem so difficult. Sometimes I allow things out of my control to detour my good intentions. Sometimes negativity and self-doubt drown out positivity and self-esteem. I need to have more confidence in my confidence. Trust my training. Trust my education. Trust myself.

Hope you all are having a lovely Spring. Can’t wait to see what else is in store for the year.

Week 15 mileage-
April 16- 7.10 mile run
April 18- 3.20 mile run
April 19- 0.25 mile swim
April 20- 8.02 mile run

Week 15 mile totals: 18.57 miles

Week 16 mileage-
April 23- 3.00 mile run
April 26- 26.20 mile run

Week 16 mile totals: 29.20 miles

We all like pictures!!! Here are some from the past weekend. Enjoy!

My little brother and me at the OKC National Memorial

My little brother and me at the OKC National Memorial

Race Expo We Run to Remember. In Honor of the 168.

Race Expo
We Run to Remember. In Honor of the 168.

Mile 25 with Mat.

Mile 25 with Mat.