you’re uncomfortable, not unable

I’ll try to make this a quick one, but not sure if that will be possible. I may fall asleep counting I just took some melatonin. We shall see.

Here’s an update on my miles so far this month-

February 2- 10.12 mile run
February 3- 5.79 mile run
February 4- 3.10 mile run
February 5- 2.75 mile run (sucky run)
February 6- 8.04 mile bike
February 7- 3.00 mile run
February 8- 6.00 mile run
February 10- 14.02 mile crawl run

Total so far this month: 52.82 miles

Wow! Sometimes it’s hard to believe that I’m actually doing this. Not being much of a runner in my past life, it’s amazing to see how far I’ve come.

My main focus right now is living in the moment. Recently, and as far back as I can remember, I get so caught up in the destination. Whether it be the finish line of the race, a promotion at work, the list goes on. I forget to appreciate the moment.

I battled with this today during my run. It was the worst run ever. I wouldn’t wish my enemy the amount of mental and physical, mostly mental pain from today. I wanted to give up. I wanted to be finished running. The turn around was right by my church. I even thought about heading church earlier and praying for a miracle to get me to the finish. Many times I find myself wanting results overnight. Granted, I feel like I am working hard to be and get where I’m at training-wise. But, I need to remember there is still work to do, and it’s not over.

One of my favorite quotes, which is actually tattooed on professional soccer player, Natasha Kai’s ribs says “Appreciate the moment. The most precious treasure on earth is MY heart..when I share it with YOU, protect it as if it was your own”

Appreciating in the moment to me means doing something that makes your heart happy and sharing that with the ones who have earned that respect and trust. When you appreciate something, you hold it more dearly than other things.

I appreciate running. Although it hurts sometimes running to me represents the real me. I love the way it makes me feel afterwards. I love that I can challenge myself and have my own thoughts, even if it’s just for a little while.

Good night, y’all!